Heart can't lie :)

I don't love him, I don’t like him, I don’t care for him and I don’t even bother anything about him but peculiarly said the allure is there. It doesn't make me like him, but my heart feels something different. It's good, I’m not sure. I just don't know how to explain it. I just know it's a good feeling, sometimes……. Thus, it is possible for some of us rite, no idea :p I don’t like him but it’s just that the distance makes hearts grow fonder, I bet it’s TRUE :)

NOTE: He called me all the way from "MIddle East" just to make sure i'm HAPPY *wink*

2nd Post

SECOND - Last few days, 4 consecutively days I went out for fast breaker + dinner at 4 different places, with 4 different person. Macam glamour rasenye. Hahaaaa =p 1st day was with Mr Rizal at Manhattan Fish Market, Mid Valley for fast breaker and direct to Xxxxx Restaurant, Ampang (hahhaaa sorryla takleh mention atas sebab2 yang mcm bangang =p) for supper. 2nd day was at Rimbun Klasik, Bangi for dinner with Mr Pemurah. 3rd day was with my lovely Tan Hong Ming at Village View, Bangi for fast breaker and direct to Times Square for some lip smacking and finally 4th day was with my whacky double cuzzins at Tony Roma’s, Mid Valley for dinner.

Those days are marvelous!!!! With the foods yang maha lazat, environment yang maha tenang (it’s a good treatment for my frenzied mind actually =p) and spent time with the people esp. my sweetheart =D owh, dah ckp banyak. Here are some pictures of the food yang telah dihadam di dalam perut =D (No picture taken in Rimbun Klasik, Bangi. For some reasons, pic at Village View, Bangi are NOT allowed to publish here. thank you =D)

The Manhattan Fish Market

Tony Roma's

as promised 1 ++bling2lips kad raya++

Tadaaaaaa……………………. My very FIRST "kad raya" for this year =D ~terima kasih Mr Pemurah =)~ not much expectation to received any kad raya around this age. Teringat zaman kanak-kanak ribena dulu. Me, my sister and my brother will always like compete who’ll received the most kad raya for the year. If any one of us received the most, means that he’s/she’s the famous among others. Hahaha what a memory. That time around, macam-macam jenis kad raya but the most we received was card with cartoon drawing with various funny phrase and pattern. Jarang dpt kad-kad yang mcm org besar punye. Yerlaa dapat pon dari kawan-kawan yang baye kite, jadahnye dorg nak beli kad pattern org besar punye kan. But I still remember I received one kad raya from my so-called-bf (alaaa kecik2, org tu suke kite sket da ckp bf kite =p ~btw, he’s married now and waiting for his 1st kid~). He sent me 1 huge-bling2lips-pattern and if we open the card, the lips was like saying “SELAMAT HARI RAYA AWAK…….” Gila canggih card tu!!! Hahahaa teruja tau bile dpt that card. Rasa macam glamour sangat orang bagi card canggih mcm tu. Heheeee =p but now the card da takde bunyi. Bling2 pon da fade =p

Now, the traditions of sending kad raya become lesser and lesser. Obviously technology has swapped all the tradition’s rule. So bad the new generation's not able to feel the sweetness of our way of life. Now everything can be done with only 1 click. No matter either via sms (choices of touching, sweet, funny, sad..u name it!), via e-mail (bluecard.com, greetings.com, etc) and any other technology system. Orang skarang nak jimat and lagi jimat. 50sen untuk setem pon dah berkira. Iyelaa 50sen baru untuk sorang. Kalau dah kawan serata dunia? Boleh buat isi minyak kete pergi balik johor-perlis plus tol lagi. Bukan kedekut tapi berjimat……… Gaji selambak mane pon kalau waste money for nothing, shrink gak kan ;). That’s why zaman skarang ni if people give you kad raya, appreciate it. Kalau boleh gantung depan-depan pintu rumah tu biar semua orang tau masih ade lagi yang sanggup menghabiskan few penny just to say you’re remembered by them. Kire setem tu substitute for duit raye laa……… (Eh, mane ade org bagi duit raye 50sen lagi ek??okla mintak lagila ATTENTION to MR PEMURAH : DUIT RAYE KURANG LAGI RM49.50. Sila bank in the money a.s.a.p to my account. Thank you =D) But remember people!!!! Duit raye hanya boleh diminta oleh kanak-kanak ribena dan STUDENT macam saye je eh =p. So kepada rakan-rakan ku yang bekerja dan menerima pendapatan bulanan yang agak lebat, please allocate some of the money to me (along,rizal,paz,ayin,k.iela,syfa esp. jgn buat2 tak tau eh!). No worry, lepas wen keje nanti, wen bagi anak-anak anda pulak yeeeeeee *weeeeeewww*

So, Selamat Har...........eh too soon lah. Just catch for my next post people!! Happy Fasting =D

NOTE-to-MR PEMURAH : Encik, tanx for the card. It shows that i'm still remembered and don't forget RM49.50 eh. I'm waitiiiiiinnnggg =p

WASHYHOG WEDNESDAY

today is wednesday

i was about to post a WORDLESS WEDNESDAY photo

but it cross my mood when somebody hit me up beyond my limit

that's why i posted an entry called LOVE me, LOVE me not.............

it might be quite boring 2 read such a long entry

i just want him to know

that i am pissed off

of his attitude which never give up

on winning my heart

even he knew i'm extremely happy with my other half

he showered me with lots of money,luxury bits

but i am not materialistic

even if i am, i do hev enuf money to carry out my longing

he teach me lots about life and love

giving and taking

but he did not applying the thoughts

it so fucking dread

it's better to change

than loosing a bestfren rite?

so pls............

CHANGE!

LOVE me, LOVE me not.............

I never understood the reason for someone to “move on”. It’s not like you’re really going to move on, you’re just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute, every minute of every day ‘til finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore.That is ‘til you see that person again, with someone who isn’t you and then you have to remind yourself again to smile… just smile.

What on earth is love? Why love is on existence? Why other people almost die for it and why other people die because of it? Does it hurt? And if yes, why other people still enjoy loving? Why people continue to get their selves involved even if they perfectly knew that they would be hurt in the end? They say love puts butterfly in your stomach, makes your knees tremble and gives you extraordinary pounding of heart, making your blood rush on every veins… indescribable feeling of joy. I think love is like adrenaline, a super power that wraps a typical mortal converting himself into an invincible one, in short, making himself capable of doing things that he doesn’t usually do. It doesn’t only faloricate super human beings, it also enhances the personality and abilities of the person infected. If you would notice, a product made out of love is guaranteed with promising beauty, quality and excellence better than goods ordinarily made. It also makes you feel well protected and equipped for the possible clash, depth and density of your sentiment. Somehow it makes you knowledgeable and mature because it teaches and gives you loads of wisdom. It sometimes makes you feel you hit the jackpot and you’re one of the lucky human beings who discovers their other half and made themselves feel complete. Lucky enough that don’t have to go to another life cycle, another cycle of searching, another quest for completion by finding your lost other half.On the contrary, it makes you feel stupid, dumb and nuts. Sometimes it makes your muscles shiver because of fury yet due to sorrow, it makes your organs revolt that some of which don’t want to be part of your system anymore. It gives you sluggish thoughts with senseless heart as words were kept lying behind the teardrops. Sometimes it makes you feel stronger wishing that you didn’t believe on it before that made you are now, full of regrets, hopes and pretentions. Yes, it makes you feel lucky, but what is luck if it made you hate the world?

Bla…bla…bla…bla… They say that when it knocks on your door whether you like it or not, it will give you instant guts, instant nerve and spirit, transforming you into instant mami! (“HUH mami?!” hehehe.) Risk taker! Sometimes because of this we make decisions like skating in the thin ice without weighing things out. Do actions that play with the fire and leave everything to luck, everything to chance to tug along the igniting demands of love that eventually leaves you some allowance to failure. Things unexpectedly touches the commencement of love, as it still obey, listen, and open to what people would be saying. But if it becomes intense, ears will remain open but minds will kept close, eyes were stressed looking but not seeing, and everything will be left out except for the deep feeling of fondness and affection.

Bla…bla…bla…bla… Love is sacrifice, selfish yet giving. Bla…bla…bla…bla… Every wound is a flower and every pain is a blessing. Others see it as sacrifices while others see it as love. Different interpretation from different point of views. But what is really intriguing is how wound and pain comes along with love…?? Words can’t fit to explain it but I guess the best way to understand is to have the same experience, who knows the concept of giving up and letting go will be love for you. I, you, we. The ages of ignorance who are the usual victims of virus of interesting curiosity were being warned of the possible heartbreaks, pains and sacrifices that could be hurtful and traumatic to our half-grown ignorant heart.

Bla…bla…bla…bla… Variety of trials comes… with different compensations… for every hurt there is learning… for every damage… there is maturity. For every injury… bla…bla…bla…bla… there is development. And for every scourge you become stronger.

Love comes on different approaches. It could be perfect as anybody wishes for or it could be dangerously passionate, violent, destructive bla…bla…bla…bla… Love is the sweetest affection, inspired by eyes, spoken by lips, dedicated by the heart, shared by souls, and proven at the altar. A too good to be true meaning! Not enough to satisfy my countless questions in mind.Bla…bla…bla…bla…

There is no exact meaning of love for it is a case to case basis. Since, I guess, nobody wants to be unhappy, people employ themselves in the business even if risks are contagious in the environment!

For the person who really makes me fall in love and i do replied the love, thank you very much for giving me the opportunity to love and to be loved..... And for someone that never ever give up in giving your love, thank you soo much for appreciating me this much but as far as i told you earlier, we can NEVER MEANT TO BE TOGETHER...... i do appreciate all the kinds n sweet words, all the bits and pieces and everything you did,but still I AM SORRY..



note : i love my life in tandem with my lovely other half..PLEASE.....MOVE ON!!!

his instinct serve him well

Mr tan hong ming instinct serve him very well... it happens when "him" yg sudah lame tak call, out of the blue rang me up..we had our very long conversation updating pulley info…few minutes after we end our conversation, sayang called me (take note that we both sudah sgt lame tak brjumpe, tak bertalipon) waahhh,seems like he can smell his rival deedlah…hahahaha

Moral-of –the-story : jgn bercinta dgn org lain sekiranya anda sedang bercinta lebih2 lagi dengan org yg mempunyai sixth sense yg sgt kuat ~kami mmg dijodohkan untuk bersama~ wakakakaka =D i love u sayang =)

mi SENTIMIENTO...

huwaaa....he está lejos para soo largo....i sabe que yo shoud no tiene estes sentimientos pero yo lo pierdo también. la parte ....and de mí, es arrepentido para mi novio..it's todo acerca de SENTIMIENTOS...why hace mi gusto de novio mí esta manera...i sólo quiere que él sea alguien que me adora soo mucho,no como su títere...please estimado,el cambio ni mí!!!

soy tan feliz =D

i'm sooo happy..so happy..soooo happy

he text me

aahhh HAPPY nyeerrr

~lalalalalaaa~

okay....it's juz a dream!!

last nite i dreamt of him....(org kate kalau kite mmp org tu,det person tgh trigt kat kt..hehee) i was wondering wut's behind de dream..he called me wif super lower voice telling me he just wanted 2 have a chat.. okla since we did not contact 4 quite sumtyme,me ~still in crazee way~ layan him borak...he said he wanted 2 c me..me say ok,just set de date n time...-deal-

on de day we supposed 2 meet,it was in de garden party (i really have no idea who's party is det) he was faaaaaarrrr away from me until i juz can see him as a tiny dot~but he's there standing steel~ i went towards him but strange thing,he makes himself getting far faaarr away from me..(dlm hatiku gile ape die ni,org kejar,die lari pulak) so i decided to stop n sit at one table but i keep my eyes on him..he smile at me n drop 1 beautiful red rose (he used 2 gimme det rose,tapi dah layu kat umah johor..hahaa) and go..hahaaa mcm dlm fantasy land kurase... me blurrrr at det time take my step off..as i turn back to go,doink~ my lovely tan hong ming stand rite in front of me n he's holding de same rose as the one "he" dropped b4....uhuk uhuk uhuk (ku terbatuk2 kecil =p) i turn 2 look at de falling rose back...it's gone!!! (alah maybe da ade org amek,kan party time tu =p) me yg blur terus pulp!!!! terbangun dari tdo......heheee dah pukul 6.30am solat time :D

sekian cerita dongeng (dream can be classified as cerita dongeng kan??) am not going 2 think bout de stupid dream...well dream is just a dream :)

ur name starts wif.................

A
Ramah dan murah senyuman. Mereka juga pandai menyesuaikan diri dalam pergaulan selain bijaksana dan cerdas. Kelemahannya, sangat mudah berasa hati, dan mudah mengeluarkan kata-kata pedas ketika meluahkan perasaan marah. Meskipun begitu marahnya mudah reda.
B
Selalu tenang dalam menghadapi masalah yang rumit dan membahayakan dirinya adalah ciri penampilannya. Mereka juga sangat setia dan penyabar, yang menjadikannya amat disenangi dalam pergaulan. Kelemahannya, sangat mudah tersinggung.
C
Ramah dan pandai berbicara. Ini yang menjadikannya popular di kalangan rakan-rakan. Mereka tidak bersungguh dalam bertindak dan selalu menganggap masalah yang dihadapi adalah remeh.
D
Pendiam, bercakap hanya bila perlu. Sopan, berdisiplin dan kuat bekerja. Kelebihannya itulah yang menghasilkan kejayaan dalam mencapai cita-cita. Kelemahannya adalah selalu bimbang dan sukar mempercayai orang lain.
E
Pandai dan penuh pertimbangan dalam menjalankan tanggung jawab. Sikapnya periang bila hatinya senang, tetapi suka berdiam diri apabila hatinya gundah dan boleh membuatkan hati orang lain terluka.
F
Punya pendirian yang teguh, tidak mudah goyah dan keras kepala. Mereka juga sukar memaafkan. Tidak setia dan amat berhati-hati bila berbelanja.
G
Kerap murung dan bersedih hati. Pendiriannya mudah dipengaruhi. Tekun belajar ketika rakannya bermalas-malasan dan sebaliknya suka bermalas-malasan ketika rakannya sedang tekun.
H
Mudah simpati, bahasanya lemah-lembut. Tidak pernah melukai perasaan orang lain. Selalu tergesa-gesa dalam melakukan pekerjaan, suka berkhayal dan bercita-cita terlalu tinggi.
I
Suka memendam perasaan dan permasalahan. Mereka juga mudah merasa curiga dan cemburu terhadap orang lain. Suka menangis.
J
Ramah dan murah senyuman. Mereka juga pandai menyesuaikan diri dalam pergaulan. Mudah merasa ragu dalam membuat keputusan dan tidak tegas.
K
Pandai berjenaka. Hari-harinya sentiasa ceria walaupun perasaannya gundah. Kelemahannya suka bercerita rahsia sendiri.
L
Ramah dan pandai bergaul dan mempunyai ramai kawan. Tidak suka bergosip dan mencampuri urusan orang lain. Amat berhati-hati bila berbelanja. Kelemahannya, tidak menepati masa.
M
Pandai dan kreatif, suka kelembutan dan jika dikongkong, mereka akan berontak. Senang dijadikan sahabat, kerana mereka tidak berkira. Kelemahannya, boros dan keras kepala.
N
Baik hati dan rapi dalam berpakaian. Mereka suka menghulurkan tangan menolong orang lain tanpa memikirkan balasan. Kelemahannya, mudah bersedih hati dan kurang percaya diri.
O
Serba boleh. Suka memendam perasaan dan permasalahan serta sukar mempercayai orang lain. Akibatnya ramai yang menggapnya sombong dan suka memilih teman.
P
Pandai berjenaka dan selalu ceria. Punya banyak idea dan sangat kretif. Sering melakukan sesuatu yang belum dilakukan orang lain. Agak pendendam dan boros.
Q
Setia dan mudah memaafkan orang lain. Suka meluangkan waktunya untuk kawan-kawan. Keras kepala, sukar diatur dan mudah emosi.
R
Pendiam dan bercakap hanya bila perlu. Tekun dengan kerja yang disukai dan bersungguh-sungguh dalam mengejar cita-cita.. Suka mengkritik. Dan sukar mengawal bicara ketika marah.
S
Pandai dan tekun dalam mengejar cita-cita. Tidak suka pada orang yang suka memungkiri janji. Kelemahannya mudah tersinggung selain sukar menahan emosi. Jika sudah emosi marahnya meledak-ledak.
T
Sangat berdisiplin. Selalu mengerjakan sesuatu menurut aturan buku. Tidak suka mengelamun atau bermalas-malasan. Suka menonjolkan diri selain senang gugup, terutama bila bersalah.
U
Suka berterus-terang dan menyendiri. Naif baginya merugikan orang lain. Tidak tahan dengan kritikan dan kurang pandai menyusun kata-kata jika berbicara didepan orang ramai.
V
Tutur katanya lembut dan pemalu. Pandai meyesuiakan diri. Selain itu, mereka juga pandai menguasai orang disekitarnya dengan cerita-cerita yang memikat. Tidak suka berterus terang.
W
Ramah dan mudah simpati. Sikapnya amat menawan. Punya toleransi yang tinggi dan ringan tangan. Keras kepala dan sukar diatur, tetapi hatinya boleh dilembutkan dengan kesabaran dan kelembutan.
X
Budi pekertinya halus. Suka melakukan pekerjaan sosial. Mudah tersinggung dan tidak akan berbaik dengan mereka yang menyinggungnya.
Y
Pendiam dan tidak suka menonjolkan diri. Ramai menganggapnya sombong walaupun sebenarnya mereka adalah sahabat yang baik. Tidak berani mengemukakan pendapat.
Z
Pandai berjenaka dan menyesuaikan diri dalam pergaulan. Suka disapa terlebih dulu dan gemar menonjolkan diri.

NOTE : THE DESCRIPTION FOR "S" IS SOOOOOOOOO TRUE!!!! -
kelemahannya mudah tersinggung selain sukar menahan emosi.Jika sudah emosi,marahnya meledak-ledak
-dan akhirnya saya yang menerima akibat..hmmm-

to : a person who used 2 b my FRIEND!!!

dear person,
i knew u always drop by 2 read my journal..it’s been kind of u still observing me from faraway. I’ve no idea y u need 2 stop evything all of sudden..well it’s not de 1st time though but it’s really insane that u still repeat de same actions...ermm ya maybe dis will b de last...i neva noe~ but y u need 2 do this? come n left weneva u want..hey am driving human feelings not !@$#%$#^&
Pls u....do respond 2 me!!!
-hikhik,sbnarnye ni jek msg yg nak disampaikan,replyla my msg...atas tu buffer jek..hahhaaa... u ni pon satu,mengade2 nk tunjuk perasaan watpe???replyla msg iiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!ngok ngek betul-

saya selalu bingong =I

huwaa....saya selalu bingong dengan dia...

saya nak jauh tapi bila kami jauh2,

saya nak dekat ngn dia balik........

kesimpulannye saya ni mengade2...

hahahhaahaaa

sigh of regret....

have u ever feel like when u like sum1 as a fren but he or she tends to over react?? dunno la why these kind of people always interpret wrongly the relationship.. it makes u feel like "duuhh....nyesal pulak kenal ngn mamat @ minah ni" don’t they just can let de relationship go on smooth or even smoother....... hey,its better den they lose de FRIEND....these kind of people can be categorize as "insan perasan" or easy to said as "syok sendiri" hakhak =D seriously i get fed up wif these kind of people...it’s my nature to be very very very VERY nice to people....act GILA-GILA wif dem and sumtimes make dem BURST their tummy like hell but it doesn’t mean i want dem to like me... i just love to make dem heppi and twist dem 2 be crazee like me...++erk,am not crazee though, just otw into it..hahaa++ starting wif just normal LEPAK-LEPAK,den gonna get de 2nd call for de 2nd time asking out for dinner....erm,just de 2 of us!!!duuhhh... LEBIH BAIK BERSAMA PACARKU......piss off when thousand times told dem u oredi have bf or gf but still they LAYAN u like u belongs to dem...the worst thing when they MERAJUK n be expecting u to console dem...GTFH!!!! nak merajok,lantak arrr....tak kuase nak pujuk!!! LEBIH BAIK KU BERMANJA BERSAMA PACARKU...wikikiki =p i don’t really get these kind of people...wut they want actly hah??? weneva i asked my fren,they will answer “he likes u laa...”nak mamPOS!!!!! LEBIH BAIK KU EXTRA2 MENYUKAI PACARKU *wink* apeeela nasibku always get to noe these bunch of peoples....since secondary to university to working life...hmm mybe i need to change my character laaa...STRICT and FIRM..hahahahaa ME??? Strict??? Wait till pig can climb tree laa.......hahahahhaaaa NVM laa...let dem b wut they want...let dem BERANGAN alone waiting for me to say YES...hahahaha sungguh kasihan....

p/s : i really love to be their companion but sumtimes i can’t really stand when they over react to me...

PLEASE PEOPLE, DO RESPECT ME!!! IF U CAN DO DET, FOREVER I’LL BE ON UR SIDE.....

++de opportunity++

am in dilemma….
de opportunity is waiting for me….
it’s just me to say YES or ERMM….
de word that can change my life…
there will be no 2nd chance for the 2nd time..
things det have been my biggest dream since I was young…
I wanna grab it…
I really want to have it….
only 1 thing makes me think again n again n again to say YES…
it’s HIM!!!!
Si jamás él me podría entender. ...why que él me quiere?? soy confundido. ALLAH ..

why me da la oportunidad pero sobre ello ALLAH me da este temor...
oh ALLAH....

please direct me to make the best choice.....